meeting his Creator

assalamualaikum & hi everyone.

abah has passed on and meeting his Creator, last friday, 8 june 2018 (23 ramadan 1439H), at 2.20am.
it was a gloomy morning for us, but a beautiful journey for abah.

mama told us the day before (thursday), that abah's condition was worsen and he couldn't eat or sip anything anymore.
i went back to shah alam at night, slept at the living room on the couch with mama.
abah was also there on his bed.
faliq stayed at night, then went back to his home for a while.
around 2am, mama woke up to perform her ibadah (i was sleeping, thinking of waking up at 3).
suddenly i heard mama called me, so i went to the bedside with her.
she felt his chest and the heartbeat was getting slower.
we both recited surah al-mu'minun, 115 as told by an ustaz. i continued till the end ayat, 118.
right after the ayat, abah suddenly woke up (it was a miracle of al-Quran, really), and that was the time when we taught abah syahadah.
he didn't remember things because of his brain cancer,
but miraculously he woke up and his mouth was saying Allah, his forehead was sweaty and then he just passed calmly seconds after that.

mama was preparing abah.
i called faliq and harith (in penang).
they came right after.
harith reached shah alam on subuh.

i remembered the signs of husnul khatimah and i touched abah's forehead.
top of his forehead was still sweaty.
i was actually overflowing deep inside, it really did open my eyes.
yes i was sad, but the same time reda and happy for abah, for meeting Allah in the best way; on friday, the last 10 nights of ramadan.
the sky that morning was calm and cloudy. no sun, no rain either.
family, neighbours, masjid people and friends came to visit; at our house, at masjid and the Islamic cemetery.

i would like to express my heartfelt thank you to everyone with their doa, kind words and also to ones who'r visiting.
hanya Allah dapat membalasnya.

at the cemetery. many people came to visit. we as family, really thank you for the thought and kind gesture :')

the process was fast and smooth, since the masjid people were getting ready for solat jumaat afterwards.
i didn't know it's 'canggih' now, they have cranes to cover the grave (hole).
so it really took just a few minutes to finished.
alhamdulillah.

this is us on the third day, visiting in the morning. still gloomy on my face, but abaikanlah. lolx

abah was indeed a very kind and generous person.
he loved to go to masjid for jemaah, even when he's on a walking stick (tongkat).
he's a giver; he always give, donate and help his family and other people.
and most importantly, his faith to Allah is really high, even mama used to say "kita orang-orang biasa ni takkan faham." lolx
he used to told me about Allah and zat Allah, which i still try to understand until now.
he told us about qada' and qadar all the time, so this time, it's destined and we're letting abah go in a good way.

you will be missed very much, abah.
thank you for all the wonderful years with us :)
may Allah grant you Jannah and blessed you with his rahmat. aamiin.

abah discharged

salam semua :)

an update of abah.

8 mei abah dah discharged daripada hospital,
lepas 5 kali sesi radioterapi.
so now abah kat rumah with mama.
cuma memang macam dah tak ingat sangat and tangan kanan lemah (nampak macam tak boleh angkat).
doktor mula kata strok, tapi tak. lepas tu diorang kata saraf.
abah selalu demam panas.
sekarang makan ubat daripada hospital,
minum susu fiber dan makan bubur.
alhamdulillah tak de makan pakai tiub dah.
boleh makan dengan sudu (mama suap).
he just lay on the mattress or the couch.
memang dah tak boleh bangun.
doc said he'll have six months to live.
tapi sebelum ni pun doktor ada cakap macam tu,
and ada cakap yang miracle sebab sampai hari sebelum warded tu abah masih ok.
now the tumor on his chest yang dok diam tu macam dah besar sikit,
and yang kat kepala (brain) dah macam scattered ke tempat baru.
i pray for Allah to grant him wellness and ease everything for him :)

hari discharge hospital, sehari sebelum pilihanraya (PRU14). abah is on a wheelchair. i took a leave that day.

for the memory and record; katil 24 kat wad.

abah's warded

just for a record (sebab sy suka simpan rekod2 pergi hospital kat sini :P)

abah is warded at PPUKM, cheras since yesterday.
sebab dah dekat sebulan demam dan kadang-kadang lupa, sakit nak bergerak dll.
after the scan and all, nampaknya ketumbuhan baru ada di kepala.
may be happened ANTARA after the last visit at PPUKM around last december to this month.
tapi tak tahu bila benda tu berlaku.
seperti sebelum ni, we refuse for radiotherapy sebab dari dulu pun abah tak nak buat.
rela lagi beliau operate buang.
tapi disebabkan ketumbuhan ada di beberapa tempat, doc cakap tak boleh operate.
dan sekarang hospital cuma mampu bagi ubat untuk mengecutkan ketumbuhan tu.
according to doc, things either will be just like the way it is, or worse.
takkan lebih baik daripada sebelum ni (sebab tak buat radio kot).
so we'll see how it goes.
i always believe on miracles.
and believe that Allah is the best healer.

readers, family and friends,
mohon didoakan supaya abah cepat sembuh.
he's a really kind person.
selalu tolong orang dalam kesusahan dll.
very generous too.
sy pun harap yang abah akan sembuh seperti dulu.

may Allah ease everything.

2018 quarterly report. lolx!

assalamualaikum. hey hey!

lolx! siap buat report suku tahun, ye.
nampak sangat cerita 2018 tak masuk-masuk lagi dalam blog ni :P
apa boleh buat, sisthor is occupied with instastory. rofl.

selain itu, daku diselubungi kesibukan bertepi (kalau 'tak bertepi', langsung tak sempat nak sentuh papan kekunci ni. haha)
= work, siap-siapan nak masuk rumah baru, sat lagi nak bulan puasa dah.
tu tak cerita nak pilihanraya lagi. hee.

hence i compile everything by selected photos.
(nak letak semua gambar, tak kemampuan).

here goes, my 2018 report :)

awal-awal tahun telah menduduki ujian awal tahun; almost 2 weeks sakit mata. LOL

gambar atas tu tengah cari spek kat kedai.
lama tak pakai sunnies.
dah sakit mata ni baru kelam-kelibut nak cari spek.
satu family ye sakit mata.
bermula dengan anaqi-myself-ariana-husband.
hah cukup satu cycle :DD

(tapi tobat la tak nak sakit mata. seksa weh. semoga diampuni dosa-dosaku.. sobs. insof sekejap).

ber-exeperience makan veggie and organic food di restoran-restoran organik. ni ayam veggie daripada soya.

my conclusion on veggie and organic food:
1. rasa tak se-havoc non-organic, tapi healthy hui.
2. mahal kalau beli kat kedai, murah kalau masak sendiri.

next!

pejabat menerima kadet-kadet PT*D berpraktikal. kenalkan, ni salina, trainee di division kitorang. her last day at office (dalam hujung-hujung januari). baik orangnya.

mengunjungi kenduri rakan seuniversiti. congrats, saiful & wife!

SELINGAN.
bulan januari jugak ada birthday raja.
so, happy birthday, raja! ^^

melepak sambil makan di pusat food truck putrajaya with my fam. lagi dua orang tu tak de dalam frame. haha

azam nak pi berjogging every weekend. ni penemannya.

wedding anniversary ke-6. dapat air fryer. wee hoo! (i bought husb a new watch).

menyambut anniv dengan makan rebus-rebus at volcano shabu-shabu, cyberjaya.

my first buy at amazon. com. boleh tahan laju jugak delivery dia! tapi postage tu je la yang mahal sikit.

seperti yang sedia maklum atau tak sedia maklum :D,
sy ni collector my mini mixieq's.
tapi tak semua set beli la.
mana yang sy suka je. lolx
so yang sy beli online ni tak pernah nampak kat malaysia.
kena la beli kan. HAA haha.

ariana's milestone project.

ariana is 5 years old tahun ni, fyi.
anaqi is 3.
tapi memasing belum sampai birthday lagi. hihi

checking out rumah baru.

setakat ni rumah belum renovate lagi.
baru lepas inspection.
rumah simple-simple and kecil je.
but we'll try to make it as comfy as possible *hashtag rumahku jannahku. gitu* :D
duit rumah start potong on april.
so makan kat rumah je la nampaknya lepas ni (lebihkan sayur. hihi)

nak letak jugak gambar ni. anaqi ketiduran sambil berdiri. lagi. HAHA

perjumpaan KGMA kat rumah kelab. lolx

pemakan-pemakan donut.

kerja kerja. kerja sampai malam. hangkut protege. lolx

merasmikan ayam kampung selepas habis detox and diet sayur-sayuran. :DD

ni consider kerja jugak tak ni. kerja pergi event. :P

meeting sidang mates at a wedding.

accompanying mama to a wedding.

menerima kunjungan auntiesku  di shah alam :) abah tak sihat sekarang ni.. sakit pinggang katanya. semoga sihat2 selalu!

bekerja sambil berjalan kat kuantan. malam sebelum, jalan-jalan kat teluk cempedak. jumpa ultraman. haha

jumpa batman juga :)

yang paling best, jumpa sue yang bertahun tak jumpa.

ariana and her kembar baju, dhia.

bawak budak-budak ke 'pantai' di putrajaya. nak main pasir katanya.

time ni baru habis event hari sabtu. lepas tu ke alamanda. lepas tu ke pantai. ya Allah mengantuknyaaaaa. one for the album. lolx

bertugas di istana dilupa tiada.

geng bertambah tahun ni. saya paling kiri bawah tu.

penutup entry. gambar menang tv, cabutan bertuah kelab ofis. alhamdulillah. tv ni nak bagi kat mama + abah. tv kat shah alam dah bertompok. tq KESWIP!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY jugak to my mama!! (dah lepas, bulan mac)
terkejutkah beliau sy membelikan robot vacum kali ni? haha
teringat zaman dulu, asal birthday je beli frame gambar :D
kadang tu beli bantal la, baju, beg.
tahun lepas ipad mini.
tahun depan harap ada rezeki lagi untuk celebrate and bagi hadiah (sebab duit rumah dah start kena potong kan huaa. mode berjimat-cermat on!)


tahun ni ada ups and downs jugaklah.
drama oso.
part yang down tu, no worries, sy akan bangkit balik.
yang penting sy ada Dia di sisi *dan di hati* :)

ok back to kesibukan! lolx

toodles!

update on abah's operation 2016

hi hi!

just a short update.

alhamdulillah, abah dah selamat pembedahan tumor di kepala on wednesday, 21 disember 2016.
semalam dah stabil and masuk wad balik.
still at the hospital, insyaAllah will be discharged this sunday.
just got back from the hospital tengah hari tadi.
he looked good. dah makan semua.
tinggal ada stapler je lagi kat kepala.. haha.
tunggu seminggu lagi kot baru bukak stapler tu.

so, let's pray for the best and pray for the speedy recovery.


ttyl!

2nd brain 'neighbour'

salam. helo!

my abah is being warded at PPUKM today.

mama cakap ketumbuhan kembali lagi kat kepala. same place. 2.6cm.

i put in here for future record.

so depa tengah nak decide, sama ada nak operate atau buat radiotherapy.

whatever option it is, sy harapkan it is the best one and abah will be healed from the tumor/cancer.

then hari ni jugak,

a friend of ours in the whatsapp group told us that one of our fellow friends kena stroke.

it struck me sebab baru hari tu cc ofis sy meninggal sebab stroke.

mak angkat meninggal sebab stroke, and recently tok sedara pun kena stroke. may Allah heal and ease everything.

she told us that this friend kena lepas raya hari tu.. raya keempat.

dan susah nak berjalan atau berdiri lama.

she's only 34, still young.

semoga dia cepat sembuh.

seeing people that we love being tested by illness, make us value health and also relationships more.

i couldn't see so much sadness, i'm sad :'(

just take a good care of your health, people.

eat good stuff. so i'll probably leave junk foods for now.

sy pun tengah demam selsema ni.. baru nak baik. hidung blocked je lagi.

dapat demam ni lepas makan prosperity burger hari tu.. hohho.

i don't know either it's the burger or not, but i got it right after i ate it. so :O

i'll continue my story in other entry, aight.

cya then!

insan-insan yang kelaparan

cerita dia tak de la solely pasal kelaparan je.. haha.

i know it's late,
but happy maal hijrah, all! :)
so isnin hari tu cuti maal hijrah.
cuti bawa ke depan daripada hari ahad.

kitorang kelaparan,
asalnya nak late breakfast kat laman perdana sambil-sambil tangkap pokemon.
tapi banyak stalls tutup.
so tukar ke umai by the lake.
bagus jugak, ada psyduck dengan apantah lagi yang tangkap haritu.. dah lupa :P

kasi chan ariana bergambar dulu :D

ariana, looking at the lake.

time tu ada 2 kumpulan ni tengah paddling.
bot diorang tulis PDRM.
polis kot tu. tengah bersukan.

then ada juga yang berbasikal.
nampaknya ramai orang yang beriadah menaiki basikal akan singgah ke umai untuk makan-makan.
kat sekeliling umai kan ada macam taman.
masa tu pun ada sekumpulan chinese, most of them with families.. beriadah kat taman belakang tu.,
sy nampak macam iklan pun ye.
ada bapa yang berpusing sambil memegang dua tangan anaknya,
ada budak meniup buih,
ada budak bermain dengan kucing,
ada budak naik skuter, basikal etc.
serius macam kat dalam iklan keluarga. hahaha

ok kembali kepada cerita kelaparan kita tadi :P

tak tau nak order apa dah lewat pagi.
hence again, char kwey teow.
kali ni banjir punya.
rasa okie dokie, tapi tak dapat challenge yang ngapfest punya.

char kwey teow banjirrrrrr.

cekodok pisang kat umai ni sedap.
sesiapa datang, bolehlah try.
sampai panas-panas, memang sedap.
tapi hari tu ramai gile orang.
pekerja pulak tak ramai.
yang mengambil order dan menghantar makanan tu ada dalam 3 orang kot.
menunggu la kejap sementara makanan nak sampai.
bawak ariana jalan-jalan tepi tasik (seperti gambar di atas-atas).

ariana makan jugak; lempeng kelapa cicah kuah kari.
amboi sekarang pandai makan roti canai, roti paratha, now lempeng pulak :D

anaqi and mama.

three. maaflah kitorang bergambar memang tak semenggah. HAHA

again, si bapa mithali dengan anaknya yang sudah ketiduran di 'kusyen'. hahaha

anaqi ni memang manja lebih tau.
kadang-kadang tu bila tidur,
tetiba mata terpejam, nangis.
bagi susu tak nak.
rupanya letak atas badan meniarap macam tu baru senyap balik. hahaha
kang seminit camtu letaklah balik atas tilam.
dia ni senang tidur, senang bangun.
once dah tidur and kita letak atas tilam, pandai-pandailah dia 'bawak diri'. :)

ariana dan basikalnya yang dah semakin 'mengecil'.

anaqi enjoys the fruit.
biasanya tembikailah.
hari tu bagi buah oren.
ehh suka jugak.
duduk sesaja berminit-minit concentrate makan buah oren, ok.

kadang ariana datang.. kadang menyibuk, kadang nak tolong suapkan.

dengan kulit-kulitnya sekali dia gigit.

memang biasanya kering isi oren tu dikerjakan.
ni semalam baru beli buah papaya.
bolehlah try bagi papaya pulak.
bagi sikit-sikit aje kasi try makan.

budak yang asyik nak follow kiteeee aje.

follow pun tapi tak sampai tahap ikut masuk toilet macam kebanyakan anak-anak clingy. haha
biasanya kalau sy nak masuk toilet,
sy tinggalkan dia dalam baby cot tu.
ala baby cot tu duduk kat depan pintu toilet je.
so apa-apa hal kita dengarlah dia menangis ke apa.

dan entry (anaqi?) kelaparan (buah-buahan? haha) diakhiri dengan gambar hari tu pi melawat atuk dan nenek kat shah alam.

toodles! :)

anniversary mama & abah

cerita sabtu lepas.
macam biasalah, pemilik blog ni kalau tak recap tak sah :DDD

sabtu lepas, 6.8.16 adalah tarikh anniversary parents sy yang ke-33!
hip hip hoorey!
sebab buntu dah tak tau nak bagi hadiah apa, kita belanja makan, kat mana lagi kalau bukan.. LOL

(tempat biasalah) :P

anaqi and i. kemain konsentrasi si anaqi tu memandang apa kat sana tu.

mama & abah yang diraikan, disebokkan oleh sy, harith and ariana yang khusyuk tidur di belakang. haha

dari pagi main tak berhenti, time orang pergi makan, tidur pulak. lolx

anaqi ni kalau duduk sesaja kena bagi benda untuk dia main, biar dia leka. so dia akan behave di kerusi. haha

ketibaan faliq, ain dan tuah. donggg *bunyi gong ketibaan masuk*

lagi sekali, sy akan spamkan blog sy dengan gambar anaqi. HAHAHA

beberapa photo makanan :

tomyam udangggg.

sizzling blackpepper chicken.

ini lauk baru; sotong masak pedas.

overall dishes. tak sempat nak snap semua satu-satu.

kek anniversary yang dibeli oleh faliq dan ain untuk mama dan abah. sedap kek ni. kek cheese jepun kalau tak silap.

saja setkan diorang berdua pakai baju lebih kurang sama. haha

happy anniversary, mama & abah! semoga bahagia till jannah. hehe

lepas tu faliq dengan ain pun berposing jugak potong kek..
sebab anniversary diorang akan datang, 2 hari kemudian, 8 ogos.

tuah lentok tidur tu. aircond aircond.. haha

dan last sekali, gambar sy dengan baby tuah.
kiut miut je budak ni. geram. lolx

oh helo! me and tuah.

didoakan mama dan abah sentiasa sihat-sihat, gembira ria and be together till the end of time.
aamiin.